"Did I not serve the Priest-Kings," I asked, "at the siege of Ar?" "The Priest-Kings used you for their ends, as it pleased them to do".
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I lifted my spear, and felt that I could have slain the robed figure so calm and terrible before me.
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"Kill me if you wish," said the man.
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I lowered the spear.
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My eyes were filled with tears.
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I was bewildered.
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Was it on my account that a city had perished? Was it I who had brought disaster to its people, to my father, to my friends and Talena? Had I been too foolish to understand that I was nothing before the power of the Priest-Kings? Was I now to wander the forlorn roads and fields of Gor in guilt and agony, a wretched example of the fate which the Priest-Kings could mete out to the foolish and proud? Then suddenly I ceased to pity myself, and I was shocked, for looking into the eyes of the robed figure I saw human warmth in them, tears for me.
"Did I not serve the Priest-Kings," I asked, "at the siege of Ar?" "The Priest-Kings used you for their ends, as it pleased them to do".
I lifted my spear, and felt that I could have slain the robed figure so calm and terrible before me.
"Kill me if you wish," said the man.
I lowered the spear.
My eyes were filled with tears.
I was bewildered.
Was it on my account that a city had perished? Was it I who had brought disaster to its people, to my father, to my friends and Talena? Had I been too foolish to understand that I was nothing before the power of the Priest-Kings? Was I now to wander the forlorn roads and fields of Gor in guilt and agony, a wretched example of the fate which the Priest-Kings could mete out to the foolish and proud? Then suddenly I ceased to pity myself, and I was shocked, for looking into the eyes of the robed figure I saw human warmth in them, tears for me.
- (Outlaw of Gor, Chapter )